July 27, 2018
hey, remember me?
it’s been a bit since I have shared anything really at all, sorry for that.
I have tried to write this “life update” post a few times but every time, the words either escape me or don’t feel right. So here I am, avoiding studying, drinking tea on a late Thursday night, trying again.
You wouldn’t think it would be that hard to write a simple post updating others on your life but guess what, it is! I have found that I am a lot more comfortable sharing stories about other people and places than I am sharing about myself. I really realized this the other day when I had to email and text the incoming students I will be advising for this coming year. The most I got was “Hi! I’m Morgan and I will be your Peer Advisor for this year. I am a senior KIP major and I am really excited to meet you all!”. Even though these do describe me and make me a little more relatable to the students…out of the infinite ways I could describe myself, I chose those. I’m not trying to toot my own horn but I think I am a little bit more interesting than that! At the same time though, I feel like who I am can’t be generalized into 140 characters or even a short paragraph. I mean writing my “about me” page on my blog was hard enough and I could make that as long as I wanted!
I have been going on these tangents (like the one above) and the only explainable reason is well… God. I start out with what I think I want to say then God laughs, calls some plays from 3rd base and just when I thought I was going to bunt, the plan is changed. Sometimes I debate sharing these thoughts because I think “eh who is even going to read this” and “but what if people say crappy things about me?” but how am I going to be a light for the Lord if I don’t share what He is putting on my heart? Oh wait, I’m not!
So in response to this thought of identity and labels and all that jazz, here is what I think
You and I are more than a label
We are more than what society tells us to be
While labels can be placed on us, we don’t have to conform to them or be confined by them
We are more than a simple sentence
We are more than a greek affiliation, a political party, or instagram likes
We are more than what the mean girl writes about us on the bathroom stall (been there)
We are more than the 11 year old who made fun of you at Target for wearing crocs (that was probably just me)
We are more than our sins
We are children of God
We are uniquely hand-made by a loving Father who offers us nothing short of endless mercy, grace, and love
At the end of the day, we choose what we are defined by
Instead of letting the world define us, how about we allow ourself to be defined by and find out identity in the radical love of Jesus Christ.
I started this blog with the FULL BLOWN intention of writing a life update for you all but that is going to have to wait. I am sitting here laughing to myself because those words that I just wrote came out so effortlessly like water flowing through a stream but now that I am trying to explain the words above… I am speechless. Again, this has to be God. I don’t know why this post turned into what it did but I know it is for a reason.
I hope and I pray that if you are reading this and you are struggling with your identity, know that you are loved. Your self worth is not your instagram likes. It’s not in the Lululemon leggings or the Kate Spade purse you think will make you happier or get more friends. It isn’t in the bad relationship you are in where you are being told you are not enough or the test you just failed. Remember: you are more than enough because God wouldn’t have made you any other way.
Now enjoy some completely unrelated pictures and know that a life update post is coming next!